God has been rocking me in a few ways as well. I heard one of my favorite pastors, Matt Chandler, a few mornings ago say, "It's easy to read the Bible. It's another story when the Bible reads you." I have been thinking the last few days on how the Bible reads me. Aka, how the Bible (really, God's Spirit) knows me, gently points out my sin, and calls me to more. I will now explain with extremely well thought out bullet points (yeah right!):
- The Bible is SUPER clear on how God feels about pride. It freaks me out a little, but basically God opposes the proud. OPPOSES! About the time of hearing that scripture, I started thinking, "Crap, I don't want to be opposed, but I think I am doing pretty good on this front." Was I wrong! The next few days God really pointed out to me pride is 2 areas of my life.
- The first was work. I noticed one morning how I was almost fixed on being noticed and recognized for doing good work. I wanted to be supplying good ideas and was even jealous when other people WERE giving the great ideas. Don't get me wrong, wanting to be a great employee is legit, but not when my motivation is to be praised for it. When I started my job I knew that God would give me the good ideas I needed to be successful and that I wanted Him to be praised. Getting that mixed up is just ugly.
- The other area was my marriage. When I seek to make my relationship with Carly more about me being right, rather than us both coming to God for grace and growth, the battles wage on. I am unwilling to forgive and ask for forgiveness when pride seeps in. Man, it's freaking nasty stuff.